Single motherhood in your 40s can be lonely and isolating. Especially when you’re in the process of learning who you are TODAY and not conjuring up who you WERE. It’s evolution at its finest. You are forced to show up solo and be the bravest you’ve ever been. If you don’t, the isolation will eat you up and you’ll create an identity that feeds on lack and desperation. This isn’t an easy path. It’s brutal and dirty and painful. It’s survival from the start, in the middle, and through the end. But, light *will* appear. Small, hopeful light. And you will start walking towards it. It may be too bright at first, but YOU KEEP ON WALKING. You have to. Even when you don’t want to. You have to. AND YOU CANNOT WAIT FOR SOMEONE TO LEAD YOU TOWARDS IT. This is all you.

Along my personal journey, I have pushed myself to jump out of my safe bubble of home (where I also work, which is a story for another time) to open up my world. To connect. To explore. To live.

Pink Background Dancing

Here are some shots of a little exploration I did this past weekend in Midtown Oklahoma City, as well as past explorations I’ve shared on Instagram over the past couple of months. I hope you enjoy. 🙂

MIDTOWN OKC

 

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DOWNTOWN EDMOND

DOWNTOWN OKC

DOWNTOWN OKC + MIDTOWN OKC

DOWNTOWN OKC

MITCH PARK, EDMOND

NORTH OKC

 

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My place for the weekend with @avidhotels while I take on #okc! #avidhotels #ad

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When is the last time you explored your own city? Had a staycation? Met someone new around the corner? I would love to hear your personal stories in the comments below!